Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Words in the Velvet Night

I sit outside as the storm rumbles around me. I am in a bubble of music. It surrounds me, and the world cannot touch me. I am in my personal eye in the storm. I don’t think about the words, I just let them flow. I feel as if the water cannot touch me here, though I can feel it heavy in my hands. The air is heavy with wetness, and it wraps itself around me. The droplets cannot touch me, however. Sometimes I just want to sit and watch the shadows pass forever. I wish that I could make life pause, and just sit and ponder in the velvety night. The night sky is comforting. It is soft, a multi-layered fabric of purple hues. The lightening plays across the sky, lighting it up in dazzling flashes. I wish I could capture this moment, and stay in this bubble of time. The music surrounds me, even as the humid air and the calm of darkness is all around me. I want to feel the music. I want it to carry me away with it. I want to capture the night and stay in it forever. I feel so free at night, like I own the world. It is for my quiet contemplation. I can do whatever I wish, with no eyes watching and judging. Everything is softer without the light of day. Nothing can hide from the day light. I love the storms. They wash everything clean. No one wants to go outside, except for me. It is my element, my world. My soul wishes to speak with feeling, but my words are always trapped inside of me. I overthink every word, and they come out gracelessly. My soul longs to speak with music, like never before. I want to be full of feeling and soul. I want to pour my heart out into song. I want to create. I want to paint pictures with my words. But my words fall into my palm, dead and useless, one by one. I wish I could sit here and endlessly watch the clouds float by in the sky. Nature is beautiful and majestic. I will never see something as majestic as God’s creations. I am fascinated. I want to travel the world and witness all of God’s beauty and creations. I don’t know everything, but I do know that God loves me. I don’t want an ordinary life. I want to experience. I want to travel and see. I want to witness the creations and the people. I want to be raw and beautiful.  

Monday, July 27, 2015

Following the Sun

You want to know the original reason I started a blog? I got a free trial of an amazing little thing called Amazon Prime, and I consequently got a free month of borrowing whatever books I wanted. I can't get enough of books. They were my first true love. I got a free audio book of the book by Zoella, Girl Online. I know it's more of a tween/teen book, but hey, I'm still young, I thought it was so cute. The girl in the book has this anonymous blog, and she groups together all of these followers, and they write about their feelings together. yeah....

That girl was so cool that I wanted a blog of my own. But since I want to do everything at once-write novels, create poetry, learn the cha-cha, travel, go hiking, attempt to speak Spanish, teach English, read books, play the violin, and fly to the moon, I often get caught up in all these other things and neglect a blog.

My good friend and room mate in Paraguay started a blog while we were there, and she posts faithfully. Her blog is beautiful and articulate, and inspires me to start writing again. I highly recommend checking it out :) It's called rushoftwenty

Well, I left Paraguay just in time to evade their winter months. Before I left, my sweet students surprised me with two surprise parties!! It's always been a dream of mine to have a surprise party, and it looks like Paraguay did a good job of answering several of my dreams. I miss the sunshine, adventures, and the people, and I hope to go back one day soon.

Very soon after Paraguay, I went to have adventures on the other side of the world, in Idaho. I milked a cow for my first time (I wish I had a picture) and I ran through fields of flowers. If I could, I would run through fields of flowers everyday. I would be running through one right now.

It's hard to find fields of flowers in Southern Utah. If anyone disagrees with me, by all means, disclose the secret of where they are.

So, the semester in Idaho flew by fast, and yes, I am back in Southern Utah again for a few months. It's been so nice to have a reprieve from the intense heat while I was in Idaho. It is definitely summer down here. And I'm going to be evading the winter yet again later this year! It turns out that I get to go live in Hawaii!! And with none other than my best friend Michael, who I became best friends with on a bus in Paraguay.

Michael and I made our status as boyfriend and girlfriend official four months ago, on a roof in Paraguay. Feel free to offer congratulations or gifts. It was an awesome moment.

I like to bask in our awesomeness:

It's so interesting and wonderful, the places life takes you. I couldn't have imagined two years ago that I would have been the places I've gone. I'm amazed at this gift called life. This girl can't stop traveling, and I'm excited to keep following the sun.